In retrospect, this past month has been much harder than I expected. I feel that about many things in my life — renovating a foreclosed home by myself, starting a physical yoga studio by myself, trying to fix my marriage by myself, and then getting a divorce by myself.
It feels like so much of my struggles have been because I’ve been, well, by myself. 🙂
A week ago, I finally closed my yoga studio/wellness center and moved my private practice into my home. It’s awesome, and I’m not by myself — I have the sweetest man in my life who is absolutely dedicated to me. I feel like he is my twin, like he was made for me.
Anyway, I digress…
So I closed my yoga studio and immediately tried to jump into my vision for Sacred Women’s Circles (A)healing from divorce, releasing energy of negative relationship patterns, codependency, awakening women, women claiming their own authenticity and power and B) training women coaches/yoga teachers/intuitives/etc. for their transformation and for their clients’ transformation) and I realize it was too much, too soon.
As I explained to a friend yesterday, it is as if my dog died and I tried to replace her with a new puppy too quickly. I’m not sure if that analogy works for you guys, but it worked for me. My vision and my path need time to incubate. Patience.
I am loving this quote: “The first rule of magic is self-containment. You must hold your intention within yourself, stoking it with power. Only then will you be able to manifest what you desire.” [Julia Cameron]
So it is time to stoke my intention. It’s time to play with self-containment. Stoking.