In retrospect, this past month has been much harder than I expected. I feel that about many things in my life — renovating a foreclosed home by myself, starting a physical yoga studio by myself, trying to fix my marriage by myself, and then getting a divorce by myself.
It feels like so much of my struggles have been because I’ve been, well, by myself. 🙂
A week ago, I closed my yoga studio/wellness center and moved my private practice into my home and immediately tried to jump into my vision for Sacred Women’s Circles: A) healing from divorce, releasing energy of negative relationship patterns, codependency, awakening women, women claiming their own authenticity and power and B) training women coaches/yoga teachers/intuitives/etc. for their transformation and for their clients’ transformation and I realize it was too much, too soon.
As I explained to a friend yesterday, it is as if my dog died and I tried to replace her with a new puppy too quickly. I’m not sure if that analogy works for you guys, but it worked for me. My vision and my path need time to incubate. Patience.
I am loving this quote: “The first rule of magic is self-containment. You must hold your intention within yourself, stoking it with power. Only then will you be able to manifest what you desire.” [Julia Cameron]
So it is time to stoke my intention. It’s time to play with self-containment. Stoking.